ugly ugly ugly font

so i stripped the new ipod of all the mp3s... (insert very evil cackle)
threw out all the photos..
proceeded to upload wedding photos and my eccentric taste in music (i.e. everything but metal and country)..
when, to my complete horror, appeared this hideous asian font...

i started off with a b&w ipod...
was very satisfied with it.. and ended up giving it away as a gift...

now i have a 60gb color ipod...
still love it....except for one thing: the asian font.

the b&w ipod from before had a nice asian font.. how could it get worse?
couldn't they use the font from its predecessor? would it be possible to get this changed on the next update?? with my luck, probably not, huh?

but this is bad... this ugly asian font is chicken scratch..
it's literally making my shiny new ipod (dare i say it?) ugly.
i'm not sure i want to look at the screen anymore. *sniffle*

some people may think i'm being anal or unreasonable..
but for $400 (not including tax) i think i should get nice clean font...

secret ipod

the strangest thing happened on the way back from circuit city...
R and i recently invested in a 60gb color ipod...
we positively adore it... but that's not the point to this bizarre story..

the item was completely brand new...
shrink wrapped with little round clear stickers in all the right places...

we turn on the ipod...
and there's 680 mp3s already on there...
along with an extensive album of photos of family and friends...

i didn't know wut to think or say..
the people in these photos are somebody's friends.. somebody's family...
and the songs, carefully chosen one by one and uploaded thru itunes...

i still don't know wut to make of it...
no scratches... no nicks...
it works without problem...

simply bizarre....

musak to mine ears

1. total number of records i own on cd (or vinyl or cassette):

when i was little i had a vinyl record player and my favorite record was 'alvin and the chipmunks'...
it had classics which included, "witchdoctor", "america the beautiful", "supercalifragilisticexpialidious", and several more...
alas, i don't have it anymore...

total number of cd's i own.... last count, i believe it was around 400 cds... something like that..
from the things i've done and consumed, i could have been a (insert choice addiction, for example: video game) junkie...
but for whatever quirky reason, my body refused to become addicted to anything... (perhaps i'm just really that lazy.. which is quite sad if i think about it...)
however~! the one thing i did get obsessed with was cd collecting...

2. total volume of music files on my computer:

10,500 songs... give or take 20 low-bitrate crap...

3. the last record i bought:

a corean album by the group "resurrection" (부활)....
i long for the days when artists were really artists and they wrote their own songs...
and every song on the album was a 4 minute journey of pleasure for the ear to embark on...
(or maybe that was the pot talking...)
instead of these half-assed hacks who are whining about people ripping them off by spreading mp3's...
maybe if they'd really take the effort to produce real music, i'd consider them worth my 12 dollars...
before resurrection's album, the next two most recent cd's i bought were eminem's... how sad is that??...
it's ironic... those artists who i'd really want to spend 12 dollars for a cd, don't even have a record out...

4. the last record listened to / song playing now:

mozart's symphony no 25 in gminor k183, 1st movement
no, i don't use classical music as a sleeping aid... i actually enjoy it...
it actually gets the juices in the brain flowing and motivates me to get off my fat ass to get working...

vivaldi's nulla in mundo pax sincera, popularized from the movie 'shine'... great movie, by the way..

bobby darin's 'beyond the sea'... although i prefer bobby caldwell's version...
it's just one of those songs u cannot help humming and swaying to when it starts up...

have i gone soft, u ask?? are my head banging days over??
nah... they've only diminished in number..
once in awhile i still enjoy obnoxiously loud measures.. lately in the car, where singing is optimum

5. five records that I listen to a lot or that mean a lot to me (either singles or albums):

enya - shepard moons album... what happens in l.a. stays there. enough said.

beethoven - symphony no 9 Dm op 125 - 4th movement... the ode to joy movement. if this doesn't move ya, i don't know wut will

dj doc (corean) - any of their hits... they're fun, with the times, and best of all, they're not always politically correct~!!

bobby caldwell's version of 'beyond the sea'... good feelings of hopelessly falling head over heels in love~

al pacino.... i like his monologues..

6. tag five people to do this meme... (i didn't want to limit myself to only people)

jeebus
buddha
lucifer
cherz
al pacino

to know...

there are some people out there..
or perhaps just one close by...

that upon first meeting, a silent connection is made...
no greeting is necessary...
as if u've known each other for a very long time...
and were only waiting for the moment to finally meet...
words of recognition or confirmation are meaningless...

a relationship where telapathy is real...
words are only used when required...
such precious breathe is not wasted on words..

all knowledge is acquired thru action..
nothing is assumed..
a connection where everything is already known...

i've known such a person since birth..
and that very same person knew me from before i was born...
he knows me still to this very day...
he knows me... and i know him... we are truly kindred spirit..

i suppose it's unusual to speak of one's father in this fashion...
but i cannot hide that which is true..

now that i'm married... i think back on my image of that "dream" husband..
and somehow i thought it would be someone who knew me so well that it would truly be,
that our eyes would be the windows to our souls..
and noone else but the both of us would "know"...

maybe someday..

three things in human life are important:

the first is to be kind;

the second is to be kind;

and the third is to be kind.

henry james (1843 - 1916)

the sad part is that i learned of this quote thru csi...

i swear to jeebus i be livin in the dark...
damn...

r.i.p. russell jones

ol dirty bastard, aka russell jones, member of wu-tang clan cashes his chips in one day before his birthday...
he was kinda the odd man out, the monkey of the group...
literally jumpin around like one...
the press called him erratic and unexplainable...
he was just being himself.... ol and dirty and a bastard....
he shall be missed...

newspaper headline: more cia officials consider quitting...
no big surprise...
the cia is an easy scapegoat when it comes to foreign affairs...

and now, director portor goss isn't in a pretty position..
on top of which his top aide, patrick murray, isn't playing nice with the other children..

but that's okay...
one of the candidates considered as a replacement is *ta-da* richard lawless..
a former cia ops officer who is currently deputy assistant secretary of defense for asian and pacific affairs
but that's not the kicker...no...
according to the article in the seattle times, after lawless left the cia he set up a consulting firm that did business in asia...
shortly after, who does he meet, but jeb bush...
yup... good 'ol jeb from florida... who at the time of meeting lawless was florida's secretary of commerce seeking business in asia....

yeah... it all comes back to bullsh... oops.. bush...
one big happy ignorant bred oil lovin american family...

jeebus help america...

u know...
if u say "bush" really fast it sounds like bullshit...coincidence??
i don't think so...

here's to another 4 years of wishing i could deny that george w jackass is the president of the country i call home..

i was at my parents house for a few nights... (few = 2)
stayed the extra night so i could go vote today...
it was a family affair.. the three of us voting along side each other..
it was the first time we ever voted together...
we were also virgins to the chad system...
bizarre little things...

excited to find out who will win...
more exciting than waiting for lotto numbers...

back at my parents home...
it's funny... this used to be "my" home not too long ago..
now, it's ... not.
my old room feels bare.. and a bit foreign..
even the stuff i left behind looks awkwardly out of place...
almost as if they don't belong to me anymore..
as if they were once a part of a life that time has no record of......

underneath all the cooking (a skill which i'm still working on...), cleaning, and running a business..
i'm still here.. surprisingly in one piece...
slowly but surely i'm slipping into the role of "korean wife"...
it's rocky territory, but i'm into a good challenge...

the wedding went off without a hitch...
well, the cake fell over...
but it was hours before the wedding and albertsons was kind enough to redo the two top tiers...

..............it's been about 80 hours since we said "i do.."
and the identity of "wife" still hasn't set in..
but i guess that'll come with time...
at least he doesn't snore or grind his teeth...
i'm also grateful for my in-laws...
they're great down-to-earth people who are respectful but not over-the-top traditional... very understanding individuals...
then again, knowing their son, they've got to be understanding..

tryin to keep my head above water...
no bridesmaids, no best men, no frills..
if i had it my way, it'd be me, him, our parents, and a priest on some far away beach...
but no...
they want to invite people and make tons of food...

*sigh*
sometimes being busy can make u so exhausted, all u can do is cry...
and sometimes being busy just makes u laugh...
in a sanity-questionable-i-belong-in-an-asylum kind of way...

drove to seattle...
thru rain and wind...
picked out rings and watches...
i'm so glad i'm not excessively picky...
but he's more glad...

oh yeah... for those that are wandering in darkness,
i'm gettin hitched...

d-day: october 2, 2004

well... it's 9-eleven... again...
and again we remember horrid images of deeds of misguided men...
at the same time, i'm moved to the realization that inconceivable acts of violence happen everyday, every second somewhere in the world...

may those victims find solace in the fact that their loved ones will always remember them..
and may we also take a moment for those who unwillingly remain unknown..
rest in peace...

one of the things i love best is...
a quiet house...
which can only be done when i'm home alone......

i have learned silence from the talkative,
toleration from the intolerant,
and kindness from the unkind;
yet, strange, I am ungrateful to those teachers.

- kahlil gibran

ok... so i haven't blogged in awhile... i know..
alot has been going on... for those of u who know.. know..
but it hasn't been easy..
let's just say that sometimes... just sometimes..
i hate being so understanding..
this open perspective of empathy...
it's really very... absolutely fucking tiring...

with great power comes great responsibility

i like questionnaires...
they shed light on dark corners..
and give way to more questions..

21 questions

1) grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4:
"what do you suppose he can want now?"
ayn rand - the fountainhead

2) stretch your left arm out as far as you can. what do you touch first?
halogen lamp

3) what is the last thing you watched on TV?
csi:miami

4) without looking, guess what the time is?
2:30am

5) now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
2:45am

6) with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
music from my headphones

7) when did you last step outside? what were you doing?
midnight ice cream run with my cousin..

8) before you came to this website, what did you look at?
old pictures

9) what are you wearing?
jammies

10) did you dream last night?
i dream every night..

11) when did you last laugh?
earlier, looking at pictures..

12) seen anything weird lately?
depends on what would constitute as weird..
there is always something weird in my house..

13) last movie you saw?
secondhand lions...

14) if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
pay off my parent's house..

15) tell me something about you that i don't know:
i actually enjoy walking, even though i fuss about it..

16) if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
i'd get rid of money..

17) do you like to dance?
who doesn't? even people without rhythm like to dance..

18) george bush:
jackass.. need i say more?

19) imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
a name that shares meaning with the moon..

20) [same question for a boy]
a name that shares meaning with the sun..

21) Would you ever consider living abroad?
hmmm.. i guess so...
i'd have difficulty living somewhere without running water and toilets..

a few days ago a person who i consider my twin soul was in a terrible car accident..
by the looks of her car, they say she shouldn't have survived..
but she did..

for this, i am angry..
for this, i am sad..
for this, i am relieved..
for this, i am grateful..

for this, i love her more..

i know...
there are pictures where i really don't look good at all..
but i keep them anyway..
i try to keep every single picture..
good or bad..
even those with people who i no longer associate with and, in some cases, don't remember their names..
or even those with people i don't like..

i keep them anyway...