lately i've been having these really peculiar dreams..
i'm in some social setting.. church, school, etc..
everything's completely normal..
no disfigured faces, no cars driving off bridges..

all of a sudden i lose consciousness and fall to the floor..
this has never happened to me in the entire 25 years of my existence..
it's kind of a frightening thought..
even when got so piss drunk on my birthday that i couldn't walk or open my eyes,
i was very aware of my environment and remember everything that happened that evening up until the point i was comfortably in my bed and blissfully asleep..

so this kind of vision is almost like a nightmare for me..
the possibility that i could unwillingly lose control of myself is unsettling..
it's only a dream, i know..